13/12/13

时间过的很快，一转眼2013就要结束了。

假期开始了，代表着还剩下要去上课的时间不多了，

代表着我要毕业了。

已经开始习惯我班上那些朋友了，随着时间越来越短，开始感到舍不得了，

舍不得那一班天天带给我欢乐的朋友。

话说如果没有他们，我根本都不会想去学校上学，

他们是我的动力，让我在着学习的道路变得跟加棒！

他们虽然天天笑我的英文差，但是从中我也学习到很多。

他们会是我很美好的回忆。

毕业后的我不知道要干什么，

不知道要做什么工，

我开始在想我的前途到底会是怎样。

我为了我的的梦想，还要继续努力着，

所以不管怎样都要好好的努力。

放假了当然最期待的就是回去跟我的朋友过圣诞和跨年。

好久没有回去好好休息了，这一次也应该会是最后一次以学生的方式还有放假回去那么久，

所以我会好好珍惜，珍惜和我家人朋友相处的时间~

期待23号的到来。

现在的我努力做工和做功课先，好让我回去可以好好的玩~

=(

如果这是一场游戏，是否意味着它该结束了呢？
是不是我们应该回到属于我们自己的世界去了？
我们的故事并不平凡，我们的未来也是个未知数~

要谈一场不分手的恋爱很难，所以选择不恋爱，
但是这样的关系比起普通朋友来的好一点，比起情人少了一点。
我变得不知道自己想要的是什么，该不该继续，还是放弃算了~
要说我们的故事，三天三夜都说不完，
只是如今的我们是要用什么模式来相处我不知道~

我要的是个有安全感的人，
我不喜欢不回信的人因为那样我很像一个白痴对一样，
就算很忙都好，至少你有那么一封信息，告诉我你今天的点点滴滴~
就算你再累都好，能不能够重视我多一点！
就算我不比起你世界的人起眼，但是至少我希望我比他们重要一点点。

我想我自己也不确定，不确定你的想法是怎样，
我自己又想要些什么。
毕竟自己没有办法思考自己是不是真的喜欢你~
毕竟我不知道我是不是依赖你多过依赖其他人，
毕竟我自己不清楚我到底是不是会一直陪伴你~
请原谅我的不确定，我需要时间去思考这一切的一切，
因为太不切实际，因为不真实，因为我害怕受伤，因为我有过曾经。

如果你真的知道你想要的是什么，请你告诉我~
如果你知道我该怎么走，请你教教我？
我的情人自知~

Changes.

Its been such a long time that I didn't update my blog.

I can't remember what was my last post about and when did I actually posted the very last post.

Life had been full of changes. It is just like taking up a tour on the roller coaster, ups and downs and you wouldn't know when is the peak and when will it stop.

Frankly speaking, this year there is too much changes happening around me.
It takes up a lot of time for me to adapt to all the changes but I believe with the heart of perseverance, I am able to get through this.

Finally I am able to survive till the last semester of my poly life.

It is not an easy journey but I will work hard so that there won't be any regrets.

Appreciated all the people who had helped me a lot and still helping me whenever I need help.

Although I always grumble on how much I hate school, but I will still treasure the moment that I get to spend together with my awesome classmates and with them I actually had a lot of fun!

Thanks for making my poly life full of fun.

And there is always a turnover in everyone life, so do I.

I don't really know whether this a good thing or bad thing but I definitely appreciate this turnover.

Thanks for coming into my life.

Words really can't describe our circumstances now.

I need some time to sort out my feeling towards you.

Although changes may always happen between both of us, but I do treasure this relationship.

Something extraordinary, something special, someone that I love and someone that I adore.

This relationship will still be counting till the day we are able to fulfill our promises.

I will always be there for you, hold you up when you need a shelter, wipe your tears whenever you are sad and laugh for you whenever you are happy.

Thanks for being the only man that can bring so much impact into my life.

And there will still be a long way to go to create all the wonderful and significant memories between both of us.

Family

I always imagining myself standing at the top of the world and own all the things in the earth.

Always think how good if I was born in a rich family, so that I do not need to worry that I had insufficient money to use, can get all the luxury branded goods without any hesitation, can even further my studies overseas without worrying the huge sum of school fees.

Sometimes, I blamed the God why He didn't place me in a rich family, but at last I think God sure has His own purposes of placing me in this family.

My dad is the only one who support the family and I can said that he is the only man that I loved throughout my entire life as he really put in all his efforts in nurturing us and make each of my siblings graduate with at least diploma.

He was not a boss of a company or a manager, he is just a normal worker who works in the factory but his uses his own strength to feed us up.

He is the only man that I adore,respect and salute.

No matter how hard his life can be, he will still put us in priority first.

My noble daddy will be retiring soon, although life might be tough after he retired, I am sure God always has his planned for us.

Besides my daddy, God still loves me a lot by placing me in such a wonderful family which my mummy and both of my older sisters showered me with all their loves.

Although they always scold me for my mistakes but they are still the one who stand by my side all the time when anything happen. 

So in the end I understand that God had his purposes in placing me to this wonderful family. Although we might not be very rich but at least we are not starving.

Thank you God and thanks for this wonderful family.

For the special one.

Its been months that we didn't meet with each other.

Sometimes I really wonder will there be any chances that you will think of me or miss me just even a second or a minute?

Sometimes I also will think all those memories that we had actually created will you still remember?

I been really trying very hard to forget the pass and live on a better future but why it is so difficult to achieve？

Even though, I replaced all the wallpaper that I used to use but everything still doesn't change.

It is still the same. The hurt, the love, the memories all remains the same.

I wish to stop paying so much attention on you, I wish to let it go but it seems to be impossible.

Just like I lost the bracelet, I feel like I lost something that is so important to me, one of the fond memories that we had created, I felt helpless at the moment because no one can understand how I feel.

I tried to search but I couldn't find, the feeling was just so bad at that moment but once I found it, I start to smile and share the joy even when they feel like wanna kill me instead.

Yes, this is love, love that can never be replace.

I don't know how to replace by someone else too.

I might be silly and people will think I am stupid but I think this all worth for me to sacrifice.

One of the most recent Soda Green's song, 我好想你, really makes me once again feel the pain of missing you.

As I thought my happening life can make me stop missing you, but I'm wrong. 

I really miss you a lot. 

Heart pain till the max. 

Everything had changed, relationship had changed, the pass won't be back, our relationship wouldn't be reconcile again.

My holiday~

Last two weeks was my school holidays and so far I had spend the best and the most awesome holidays the two entire weeks.

I knew that my mum gonna killed me as I go home very late everyday during the two weeks.

But I just love the fun of hanging out with my babes whenever I am free.

To summarize the holidays, nothing much special just go out to have supper with my friends, come my house at the late night and playing games, some chilling session, and the only outing that I went was JB one day trip. 

Not forgetting also that I went to Zenxin Organic Park to cycle but I was having a bad day as I can't really cycle well. So I bet I won't be going there anymore.

Not to say I didn't spent time with my family, I did spent time with them as me and my family had celebrated my little nephew 3 years old birthday and Father's Day and every Sunday is my family day. I will spend all my Sunday having dinner with my family. This is what I usually won't missed out unless there is something important that I really need to attend.

Lastly, I wanna thanks all my friends of spending your precious times with me during the entire two weeks. I truly enjoyed every moments with you all and it was really a nice catch up with you all.

Take care all my babes=） Love you guys till the max=)

Too many pictures to be upload so I compiled it and never get the chances to take pictures of everyone that I actually meet up. 

Little nephew birthday celebration.

Enjoy the time spent with them.

Buddies birthday celebration.

My baby boy~ Someone that I meet almost everyday.

One day JB trip. Photo taken at Polar Dance Studio.

Shapo in da house! Love you guys too=)

My baby~Words don't express how much I treasured you.

Silly sister/

One of my precious babe. Thanks a lot of fetching me here and there. Love you deep deep and best luck in your studies.

My gossip geng! I appreaciate them a lot.

6/6/13

Too long of not updating my blog and wondering will I forget here is the place where I drop down my feeling and thoughts.

Life has been going on. So much of burden chores to be done, so little time to enjoy myself. All those daily hectic routine and monotonous lifestyle really can suck my life up.

Nothing much happy to share but just feel quite relieve as all my test were down and two weeks of short breaks gonna begin soon.

I don't really know how much fun will I have for the entire two weeks but I will surely rock up my life and definitely take this opportunity to meet up with all the people that I wanted to meet.

All my lovely friends, do spare some of your time for me to catch up with your life. 

After three weeks of not contacting with each other, we finally met up.

She should be fine and life still continue as usual like what we always did. 

Yet sometimes I felt it is the really right way to have such an intimate relationship with each other?

This contradicting feeling really makes me feel sucks and I have keep wondering should I end this relationship.

I promised her to be her sister, I promised her that will take care of her and I told her that I am satisfied with what we are now. 

So much of future we had thought but I wonder will we have the strength to move on and fulfill all the dreams.

But at this time being, I will still be the one who stand by her side and who will take care of her till the day I think she do not need me anymore or the day that she don't really needs me.

We created so many fond memories with each others and yet I don't wish to replace it with the memories that I had created with you. 

I just scared that when she give me too much, I will start to forget about you.

I still remember so many things related to us and I will definitely let it remain in my heart.

You have no substitution even who have come into my life. 

The one and only love.

Forever Love my beloved country!

When I was young, I was not so into politics. 

I don't really care who will rule the country as long as I live a happy life and I grown up in a blissful manners.

And until today I finally realized that politics issues had became worst from day to day.

I am not going to discuss about politics but I do feel heart pain for Election 2013.

Why the rural party-BN can do such dirty tricks in order to seat on the throne.

I always thought an election must be fair and righteous. 

BN had really make Malaysia's disgrace in a lot of other countries.

Why there will be sudden black out and BN get more votes! 

BN really thought we all stupid that's why they do so silly stuffs?

If BN wants to win over the nation heart, BN should take its own effort to change.

 They should also let the nation see the effort that they all had actually put in to develop our country and not by playing all the dirty tricks to win during the election.

One thing to be happy about is that nation are getting united to UBAH! 

We are not protesting but we are playing a part as a Malaysian to make our country better and better.

Our PM had thought us to become Satu Malaysia and we finally did.

No discrimination, no racist!

We are not Chinese, Malay or Indian but we are Malaysian.

We are not Banglasia! 

No any other country will be able to speak four languages in a sentence and still understand what the sentence meant.

We fight for our country for a better future.

Even we had lose this time, but the spirit of the nation will never ever fade. 

We will work harder to prove that we want to change!

For those who did not get to vote this time, five years later let's vote together to make a change to our country!

Although I am not participating in any of the UBAH events, but I do feel happy to see all the Malaysian gather together to support the events.

I was so touch to see the video in Kelana Jaya and when the nation sang the national anthem. The nicest national anthem sang by Malaysian that I had ever heard.

Do remember we did not act harsh, we used words to let them understand us.

Words always speak louder than action.

I had been wearing black for the past six days to mourn for my beloved country.

I am not qualify to vote this time, but 5 years later I will do my part to vote.

I love Malaysia,  I want a clean and safe Malaysia.

Even though I am not staying there permanently, but I will definitely return to my hometown when I am old because I love the environment and love the people there.

Love the carefree life at there too so I want my country to be safe when I plan to return! 

Year 3 Sem 1

School had officially started for three days.

So far I still dislike to go to school and preferred to stay at home or either go to work.

I dislike the modules that I need to study and the thing that I hate the most is that I do not have somebody who can accompany me in the class.

Just to say that I have to lunch alone,go to school alone and go back to school alone too.

I hate to be alone. I really hate.

I just don't get why I can have somebody who can accompany me in class.

I am a person who can make friends so easily but why can't I get any good friends in class.
I miss my Year 1 friends. 

Mood was so down recently as I hate going to school.

I wanna go home. I wanna have a break. I hate school. 

=(

Internship Experiences~~~

9 weeks will officially come to an end after this Friday.

This mean that ending of internship and Year 3 gonna begin.

It is a good experience working in SP services as the colleagues make this journey a wonderful and meaningful one.

Nonetheless of all the problems you faced, people there would not hesitate to help you out. 

They were so eager to share experiences they encounter throughout their working life.

Even though, days might be tired when I faced with all the ridiculous and nasty people but they were the one who strengthen me up and move on for this 9 weeks.

So much experiences gained but it was indescribable.

Thank you for this wonderful memories,thanks for the people there.

You guys had taught me a good lesson, something that couldn't be found in the classroom.

Appreciate each and every of you there.

Every journey will come to an end, so this is the time to say goodbye.

Saying goodbye by bringing all the knowledge gains to continue on pertaining a good future.

I will remember each and every of the people day.

One day later I might be back to join the team and continue to serve our customers better.

Meaningful Weekend.

This was so far the best weekend that I had spent in Singapore. 

Three days of fun made my days superb awesome.

It's actually damn tiring but I still enjoyed a lot.

Going out with the right people is the most important thing.

No matter how much money both of us had spent it wasn't a waste at all.

On the Friday night, we went to walk around the town and had dinner at Japanese Ramen restaurant which tasted sucks.

We ended our day with a suck movie too,Snitch.

On Saturday night, we went to movie and Itacho sushi for our dinner.

I think Itacho sushi was the best sushi that I had ever tried.

After dinner, we actually walked around Bugis and we get to watch a charity event hosting there.

Saw a few handsome macho 8-tv celebrities. 

Managed to get a picture with one of them.

Feel great to see a group of people showing their martial art skills.

Starbucks after that and I still love the drink that I always order.

Accompany her to work and I get one free shot of Tequila which tasted more like 7-up.

Yesterday was the best day as we headed to East Coast Park to embrace the tranquility of the beautiful scenery.

We walked around the beach and we decided to cycle.

It is so fun since I last cycle like during my primary school time.

And the best thing was that I actually can cycle.

Met with my bestie from school as well.

Dinner at Astons!

Lastly,movie for the night was Warm Bodies which I found it was quite nice!

Thank you for your accompany and your treat!

I know you almost bankrupt already!Haha!

Thanks for being my best friend!

Day 1-Ramen and sushi=(

First selca for both of us!

Guess which toilet we entered?

Day 2-Itacho Sushi=)

While waiting for sushi to arrive=)

Martial art performances!

Shane in d house!!!

Starbucks-ing!

Day 3-Astons=）

Resting while cycling!

Group picture=)

Our bicycle !

Life=(

How much I wish I was still a kid,

A kid owns so much freedom.

They do not need to bother to feed themselves, what to wear, what to do and so forth.

The most important is that they live happily regardless of money, relationship, friendship or kinship.

Why every grown up kid much face with all these problems?

I truly understand the pain to go through all these stages.

Each stages of these problems bring so many bad effects to us.

As Chinese quote said that "讲钱伤感情”， I think that this is so true. 

Whenever you wanna take money from your parents or what, you feel damn embarrass as you are big enough already.

Life sucks without money too!

I believe that relationship is the most crucial problem that face by everyone.

Love is something so hard to describe.

You may get hurt to fall into someone that don't love you, you may also get irritated by someone who love you and you don't even love his/her.

The one you love always treat you as best friend or your ex always the one you love the most.

Relationship can be so bullshit in life.

Ambiguous can sometime be sweet and sometime be hurtful.

Just hope to live in peace without having a complicated relationship.

Friends were the one who stay by your side whenever you need help.

Friends can be the one who share your joy and sadness.

Some friends in your life can just turn your life upside down by their bitchiness.

Just choose the right friend and hang around with the clique that can get along with you.

Kinship can be complicated too.

Sometimes you might have misunderstanding with your family members.

This is the time you feel the worse as you feel that they did not trust or understand you.

Life can be sucks by all sort of problems.

How I wish I can be a kid that free from all these.

Please set me free! 

CNY!

February gonna end really soon.

Time flies so fast.

Looking to a month back we were still busy preparing CNY but tomorrow will be the end of this festive.

I had a great celebration this year as I was able to catch up with most of my friends but I didn't managed to meet up all! I am quit sad about it. I promised I will be catching up with you all next week when I return to the beloved lalaland.

This year celebration was as usual as previous year.

New Year's eve I will spend with my family and reunite with each others.

Not to miss out with my friends, I will usually be drinking, watching a movie and also gambling for the entire week.

Here are some of the pictures of CNY as I couldn't upload all because it will be too much.

Miss out a lot of people here and so sorry about it. 

Enjoy the last day of CNY babes!

 

My cutie pie nephew with me!

Drink,drank, drunk night with beloved Gossip Geng!

First day of CNY with babes and new friend!

Visitation to Crystal's house!

Visitation to ML's house with babes!

Pretty babes!

Drinking night with brothers and sisters!

Gambling session in my house!

Take care in TW! See you in a year time!

Take care in TW too!

No inspiration to express my feelings!

I am still alone standing in the darkness,

Waiting for someone to embrace me.

The person was so near yet so far.

Why am I always falling in love in someone that will definitely hurt me.

This time I was so afraid, afraid to be with you.

I know I will be hurt,so I choose to stay away.

The happiness shall remain in the heart forever,

But I choose to not fall for you.

I can't resist the pain of getting hurt anymore.

Thank you for the memorable memories.

Our relationship shall remain in this stage.

I will stay strong through this period.

珍惜生命和眼前的人~

今天开了watsapp收到了非常惊人的消息，瞬间把我给吓坏了~

我最宝贝的朋友们出车祸了，那一刻的我傻眼的看着电话，当然很开心他们都没有什么事，只是车子毁了~

突然间觉得友情真的很重要！我没有办法失去任何一位在我心目中很重要的朋友还有我最爱的家人。

家人虽然每次会意见不合还会吵架，但是在你最需要帮忙的时候，在你有事情的时候，他们不会袖手旁观。他们一定会帮你。

家人是你有问题事，会给你很诚实意见的人。

我虽然是家里面最爱玩，给家里带来很多麻烦的人，在家也算贡献最少的人，但是我知道我家人一样很爱我。

虽然我很讨厌他们每次管我，不要给我迟回家，我知道是为了我好，但是我爱玩的个性改也改不了~

所以很对不起，这个我真的很难改~

朋友对我来说也非常重要。
他们带给我无比多的欢乐。
虽然我们现在大伙们聚在一起的时间非常少，但是我们还是尽量抽出时间，大家聚一聚聊一聊。
我们偶尔可能会意见不合，我们偶尔可能会吵架，我们可能彼此都会有少许的摩擦，但是到了最后大家还是可以好好一起坐下来，聊些八卦~
我喜欢和我的宝贝们聊着我们讨厌的人，我喜欢听宝贝们说他们自己的故事，我喜欢和我宝贝们分享我的心情，我喜欢大家一起睡觉，一起在朋友家大闹的日子，我喜欢我们喝酒的时刻，我喜欢大家的全部~
我很珍惜你们这班朋友，希望我们的友情一直到老，希望我们能够一起颠倒我们不可以颠为止。

这次真的很感谢老天爷让你们在这场意外中没有受到任何伤害。
我也希望我们大家能够健健康康，平平安安的活到老。

My School Holidays.

I love this school holidays so much.

So many special occasions that I get to celebrate with my awesome buddies and babes.

I love to spend all the special occasions with them because they are so important in my life.

I celebrated Christmas with my buddies on 23rd as all of us were so busy on the Christmas's Eve and the day itself.

We went to Ozo for chilling session and this was the first time that all of my buddies get to gather together.

So happy to have fun with them.

Buddies gathering.I love them.

On the Christmas's Eve I spent my day with my babes at the JS Annual Dance Show.

They really did a great and wonderful performance on that day.

All of their hard work really pay as the performance was so awesome.

The countdown party was so fun too.

My babe Angser. 

Bibi and two cutie from Playboy

My little bro,Jeng Guo. Love you~

The little cute girl.

My lovely 肥猪戴.

On the Christmas Day, it was so fun to have dinner and singing session with all of them. 

Not forgetting about the exchange gift session. It was so fun although there was all sort of ridiculous presents. Haha.

Lastly, the random thought of Running Man ended the day perfectly.

We was so enthusiastic in the game and I think all of us had enjoyed the night.

Christmas celebration.I love them.

Exchange gift session and singing session.

Kerson and Ah Zhao babe.

On the New Year Eve, I also can't miss out to spend this important day with my babes again.

This time we had our dinner again at the same restaurant.

We also had second time of Running Man this time.

Even the heavy downpour also can't stop us from having fun. 

We really can bring so much colors to our hometown when we all get together.

Group photo of the babes on the New Year's Eve.

Selca with all my babes.

Another lovely night with my babe also.

First time taking picture with him. Handsome boy,Iz.

My babe suddenly become so handsome after she shaves her hair.

Pretty Peggy.

Bump into my secondary school mate.

 Thank you all the babes that God had put them into my life.

You guys really make my days wonderful.

I can really behave like a insane in front of you all. 

Last but not least,

All the best to you all in this new year.

Hope you all can achieve all the thing that you all had already planned.

Continue to pursue all the dreams,babe.

Remember when you all are tired, we are always there to lend you all our shoulders.